I am happy in the current state of my life today. However, occasionally, I find myself day dreaming about what ifs. The most common dream I have is sitting in my brand-new Porsche 911 Targa 4 GTS. Since I sold my 1976 911 S Targa, (I miss that car!) I have had the dream of someday replacing it with another. Unfortunately, $140 thousand is a bit much for me right now, so the dream continues. But, in the last few days, another day dream crept into my subconsciousness. It involves today’s State of the Union Address.

Before Donald Trump entered the political fray in the United States, I paid cursory attention to national internal politics between the Democrats and the Republicans. Although for many years I have been aware of the State of the Union addresses by previous administrations, I mostly absorbed the major talking points and sometimes looked closely at any mention of U.S.-México geopolitics or immigration reform.

But today, I plan to pay close attention to Trump’s speech.

Unfortunately, I can’t help but have a daydream where Donald Trump steps forward to the lectern and acknowledges how wrong he was to demonize Mexicans, like me, and my country, México, when he launched his latest presidential bid.

You, and I may have differing opinions about The Wall and even whether immigrants are beneficial or detrimental to the United States. I have disagreed with previous administrations over immigration reform and the constant misuse of immigrants for political fodder. And, although I disagreed, sometimes vehemently, I never really dwell too much on the administrations, even the ones targeting immigrants for deportations because, for the most part, there was a difference in opinion on public policy, but it was seldom personal. When a politician made it personal, they were quickly admonished by saner politicians up the hierarchy.

It was Trump’s attacks upon my brethren that has consumed me since he uttered those detestable words of “rapists” and México sending bad people to the country.

From that point on, The Wall became a symbol of the contempt that Donald Trump holds for people like me. For that reason alone, I cannot remain on the sidelines and leave Trump unchallenged for his hatred of me and my compatriots.

But, it has been a long battle and it shows no measure of abating any time soon. Trump still hates Mexicans like me.

So, I have a day dream where Donald Trump issues an apology to me and my Mexican brethren and I get to take a break from Trump’s hatred.

But, like the day dream of the Porsche, it is not going to happen anytime soon and likely never will.

I’m more likely to step into the Porsche dealership with $150 thousand in cash than Trump acknowledging that he is sorry for hating Mexicans.

So, tonight, I’ll be listening and cringing to Donald Trump’s speeches of hatred and intolerance, so I can better prepare myself for the battles yet to come. It’s been long and arduous, but Trump’s hatred of me and my countrymen cannot be left unchallenged.